there ain't no harm in dreaming.

Friday, December 24, 2010 @ 11:17 PM

Yea my blog is dead.. haha kinda lazy nowadays
and army is kinda preventing me from going online often
Cos my wifi connection camp is too laggy
and weekends most of the time I am outside
Either tht or I watching tv lor
Haha wanted talk about 2 days back
went see some fortune teller cos she helped me
Erms I was sick for 2 months, about a month was spent in hospital
Some relatives and frens came visit, thx ppl :D
anyway she said 4 things about me which was quite true
And also she predicted when I will be discharged from hospital
Bloody hell, exact same date!!

So here are the 4 things:

1) I am smart (She forgot to say I lazy??)
2) I tend to save money, in other words stingy (Really? I spend a lot wad..)
3) I am kind hearted
4) I tend to be angry at myself, blame myself..

and yea point number is super riight
The moment she said tht immediately I thought of March 2009
gosh it seems ages ago... but back then I tell you..
I even went one week without eating lunch back then..
Yes just to punish myself
Foolish right!!
I did many more things which caused physical scars actually, even years before that
But forget it la I hav changed, quite a lot
I would say grown more mature when it comes to these things
so yea it would probably be like years before i find someone ba
At least I think tht should be the case..
we will see how.. till then,
Merry xmas and happy new year!!

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Sunday, September 05, 2010 @ 6:18 PM

this post is probably dedicated to everyone i know ba.
I m feeling sad not just becos i m posted to aslc
I m sad becos my injury is worsening
if i go on training like this, my knees wont make it
i don wanna end up limping when i grow older
and i m sad becos i feel insulted.
back at the route march, i didnt mean to limp while i walk
i was realli in pain, ie my injury was acting up
And I was realli trying, so i dont get why i was being scolded
Oh well tht person didnt mean it either...
forget it la.
now the problem is whether i want to carry on not
I could hav down pes status like months ago
but back then i didnt want to, i thought i could carry on
so i told the specialist, lemme go on.
but now? sighs. life sucks
I cant realli carry on anymore.
its not only pain. pain is still ok
The real problem is i dont want any damage done to my ligaments
i rather die than become a handicap.
the end.

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Wednesday, August 18, 2010 @ 12:09 AM

Shall make it brief.
My knees hurt like mad now cos of trng ): sian
how to heal like that !!
hmmmms cant wait for book out.
dam shack these 2 days
Haha probably go town again this weekend, but haven ask anyone out yet
Shall ask soon lols or wait for ppl ask.
okok make it brief, i dam tired le. wanna update..
Haha some updates on past 2 weekends...
and anyway don get why some army guys club every book out.
tired sia!! don worry i not tht on, i want my sleep (:

7 aug was the start of the long weekend hahas
and which also happens to be Yunjie's birthday!
Happy Belated Birthday to you lol u liked my present.
so yea went for lunch, ex sia 25 bucks, and walked around wif Kel
talked quite a lot haha
then my dear fren went for his date (:
thn i went dinner wif kelly ade, and 2 others at Waraku
LOL my meal dam dry can, and its 16 bucks !!
but forget it ba didnt join them cos of bday girl hahaha
hahaha bday was like 'wow' tht night..
seriously I haven seen tht side of her before
hahaha but glad she had fun anyways
reached home quite late after tht

the next day met up wif khim
woah finally sia, glad we still ALAB (As Lame As Before)
We watched Salt, which was ok only, thn talk cock and stuff
Oh ya and take care for the next few weeks ok bro!
Jiayou in Taiwan :D
I shall try meet him before he flies on Fri ba ??
Yea after meet him I went dinner wif my family
hahas also quite long nv see my aunt le
haha and i just realised i go town like all the time
army really made me do this. I always spend my weekends in town nowadays lol

and National Day!
Happy Belated Birthday Singapore!
Lols I still didnt stay home, went out talk cock wif Andrew
thn dinner wif section 4 mates before booking in!
haha sian sia if only i was not in army... arghh 1 yr plus more to go !!

the next weekend! or rather, the most recent de
hahas reached home 6 plus, and ate quite a lot.
felt like eating good food :D
hahaha i practically watched tv the whole nite and slept at 11pm
i don usually slp this early (even in camp).. but was dam shacked out le lol
saturday! another day in town. this time played pool (finally)
but i didnt play well, not up to my usual standards lol
thn watched the last air bender ( and the movie is wtf !@#$% )
seriously gt scammed, don waste money
lol lucky my tix was like 7 bucks, thx to Passion Card
Haha the funny thing was tht there was even a free popcorn (which was dam cheapskate LOL)
U don wanna know how freaking little was given lols
and then yea went off to meet some 0819 peeps for dinner at some jap restaurant
surprisingly this weekend i didnt really eat sushi (which i really loved)
almost every book out i eat sushi (:
haha thn yea woah quite long nv see them also.
and Happy Birthday YY !! hahas and Happy Be-earlied Birthday to Bok !
hope u all liked my presents ba
Well anyway, i had some unagi hotplate and gosh, it was dam nice!
haha after dinner we went cut cake and celebrate xD
In the end was quite fun haha though quite tired.
reached home super late oops
and guess wad i woke up super late the next day as well (: haha
went for pool for a while wif Andrew.
and omg I played dam well lol
He won me once though, but i won the rest oops
hahaha i still think he dam sad, gt one match he nv touch any ball at all, except for when he break (and yes he nv score any ball when he break)
know wad tht means?
Lol it means I did the Kelvin to him :D

ok la end of update. dam tired now.
some last notes ba hahaha
take care YT and all the best to you YJ :D (lol i feel like supporting YJ this coming sat)
hahas and to J, sorry i expect this to happen. but I dont wanna lose a frenship over this.
hmmms... and lastly to the person who ignored me tht weekend...
don always so stress ok !
I m always here for you :D

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Monday, August 16, 2010 @ 11:37 PM

nothing's working out. not at all. I cant really take it anymore. screw me.

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Monday, August 02, 2010 @ 12:01 AM

Rather late nw.
I shall try making this a fast one
Haha update update!
My army life last wk was rather tiring omg!
cos wednesday was the IPPT hahas
and woah lucky me! i managed to get a silver
hahas i ran 2.4km with pain, but still lucky me
cos SBJ i was quite lucky to get a silver score for tht
and for the run, i was the last in the whole platoon on 51 ppl!!
Yea the feeling kinda sucks lol. but i just hope my knee problem goes away
Only after healing it, then i can improve my 2.4km timing...
thn wed was omg la.. feels like chilli all over my face ):
lols okok tired liao. I shall go on to my weekends!

hahas firstly, i booked out 10pm fri nite.
So by the time i reach home, nearly midnight, had gd food (punggol nasi lemak) before going to bed
Lols and i slept 12 hrs!! cos i woke up at 1pm on sat (:
I woke up feeling dam happy (or quite) cos i was dam tired the entire wk!
a bit sad tht nite outing wif ys ju en and peeps was cancelled, but still ok wif it ba, next time thn meet up!
but if i rmbr correctly, my dream was rather weird.
I actually dreamt tht i was in this world whereby ppl kiss strangers everywhere -.- and i went like wow, wad a dream .....
so yea and so i left hse around 2.45pm or so, to take bus 101 to hg, thn train to kovan, cos faster, was late le
supposed to meet 2pm lidat oops lol
and there you are, I was surprised to see this person I haven seen for months
Lol and i probably thought we wont even see each other ever again?
yea sadly i was being ignored (long story)
But haha its quite heartening to see tht she's doing fine (or at least she looked like)
and na nothing happened, just lidat lor hahas
except maybe my heart beated quite fast when she got on the bus....
na JUST JOKING la of cos lol... like i really will lidat hahaha
so in the end went kovan play pool, which i did quite well
and bowl.. and i suck at it!!
hahaha thn met yj in town at 6 plus
lols so long nv meet le :x
had dinner at Billy Bombers hahas woah expensive
thn watched The Crazies lol omg 1st row!!
But the movie was quite nice lol so still ok
hahas thn arcade and stuff lols quite funny
must meet up more often ok HAHA
and someone bday coming le worhh hahas old alrdy!
And tht nite also happens to be the first time i rejected my parents to go drink
cos i was too tired lol
Yea then slpt till 9 plus sunday
wanted to pool wif yusiang, but didnt open. sad sia
Yea so thn met kel darren ken after tht.
Ate lunch and pool-ed. roarrrr didnt get to own kel!!!
lol just joking (:
hmmmms thn met up wif kh and edwin after tht. OMG so long nv see them le lol
for months le.. lol then prob december thn meet up again ba
everyone busy wif schoool and work and army hahas
yea dinner at home, and here i am!
in camp ):
as u can see i very lazy say out details le, tired...
hope this wk wont be as tiring..
gd luck to myself for my upcoming navi test soon!! sianzzzz
and yea cant wait for the upcoming wkends!
lotsa stuff coming up :x
Dam looking forward sia cos mon also holiday wahaahaha :D
shall movie and pool and maybe stay out!
Ok la gotta slp le. nites and sweet dreams ppl (:

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DUMB SIA

Sunday, July 25, 2010 @ 11:45 PM

lol i feel dam dumb nw sia...
I actually left my scs shirt at home zzz
Hope this wk wont use, if nt i will feel dam sian
see if can get frm my bro ba, just in case
hahaha had an ok week this week. limited time cos sat 12 plus then book out
hmmms yea supposed to meet some SSC ppl de..
but last min nt free nv meet
Haha but in the end it became a gd thing for me
Cos i bloody went to slp straight after my bath when i reach home!!
had a gd slp cos the whole wk didnt slp much lols
until 6 plus, thn dinner wif andrew, pool wif him and wf
wtf i nv play often skill nv deprove sia, shocking
Almost 7-ball andrew oops. he lucky i miss easy shot, in the end 6-ball still bad but not that bad hahaha. sorry andrew!!
reach home midnight le lols
In the end i nv touch the com at home. and here i am using laptop nw
cos i go out every wk!! ROAR wkends so precious
used for meeting up wif frens and bros (:
and of cos family!
in fact i met up wif clement and wendy tday, wa nv see them for at least a year!!
lols caught the socerrer's apprentice, quite cool :D
thn dinner wif family, and here i am!!
DAM, hate sunday nites, cos it means book in ):

hahas I cant wait for the coming wkend, and the next as well, cos long wkend.
hope no RT sia, all depends on my SBJ on wed le.
cos the rest can de, stupid knee injury causing me nt to jump as well ):
thn running also.. but tht one should be no problem de
my main problem is SBJ, roarrrrrrrrrrrrrr
wa if fri nite get to book out i will dam happy sia :x
Thn can go out at nite wif some SSC ppl if they free also
and get to slp at home!!
Saturday maybe movie, thn maybe at nite stay out
hahas sunday meet up wif some ex-colleagues for lunch, thn dinner wif family..
the week after..
go out wif bro fri nite, movie saturday, maybe stay out at nite also... then sunday meet up wif khim bro, at nite dinner wif family.
HAHA at least these are all my plans for now.
hope i don screw up on wed can liao
DON BURN MY SATURDAY!!
hahaha heng heng ar xD
nites peeps (:

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Friday, July 23, 2010 @ 11:30 PM

I thought I was emotionally strong, why then do I feel this way, now? Dam.

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Sunday, July 18, 2010 @ 11:30 PM

I m suuposed to be aslp nw but heck la
Lol I just realised my blog is dead
But wadever man.
Just some highlights since entering army.
Nw i m in SCS, apparently i lucky to get to use lappie almost every night
and my injury.. still the same
Kel says i m garang, and told me not to be so garang
Indeed i think i quite garang ba
cos i could hav OOC-ed if i wanted to
but na, i wanna test out my limits once again, just like in BMT
Well, in fact many things have happened this yr, even b4 i enlist
I can say, my life is rather complicated rite nw
Probably nt to the extent of screwed up yet though, cos i have settled most of the complicated stuffs...
seriously i rlly feel for some frens i know of
though i cant really help them, i do hope tht they are doing fine

anyway some recent updates first??
well, fri booked out at 6 plus wtf!!
cos we ended everything early, lucky get to go early
hahaha mrt-ed home thn attended a funeral after tht
Ohh man it was quite sudden, i was shocked when i heard about my this relative too
but ohh well life's rather unpredictable
Talked to relatives and stuff they all asked about my knee problems
yeaps thn after tht went some pub wif my family
Didnt drink much though, only 2 cups whisky
cos was playing pool wif my bro, and played some video game as well
hahas i reach home totally too tired sia, collapsed on the bed
Yea thn saturday met bro for dinner, sunday also met a while
caught up wif him lor
but yea sat nite was quite fun
pool-ed thn mahjong, dam long nv play mahjong le
HAHA and dam long nv see kailin also
hope u are doing fine girl
thn on the way to srgn saw serene
woah also dam long nv see her le too bad she didnt see me
and anyway there was one wed nite was feeling quite happy
haha i think was during the Germany-Spain semi final match
woah awesome nite hahaha

complications complications...
u know wad are my 2 regrets now?
Firstly, i regret nt taking good care of my knees, cos i hav no idea how i got this problem as well.
Although the doc says its knee overuse and it can heal with time, things arent going smoothly, as army doesnt allow me time. And so thts why Kel says I m garang

Haha and secondly, I regretted not telling you this. I regretted not telling you wad you mean to me. Right now, I have probably given up, cos i know there's no point telling. First i don even know how you feel, second cos army doesnt allow me time. You know how precious my weekends are now? Hahas. And yea now I conclude I don hav anyone i like right nw. It will probably stay the same for the next few months. So yea, thts why i have this regret.

But still, I have come to terms with all these. Ironically, life in army tweaked my mindset tht little bit. I now learn to take things in my stride and i try to look at things from different perspectives. Hmmmms weird isnt it. I guess I changed cos I realised (in army) that things are beyond ur control at times. For eg u are forced to study from the day you are born, isnt it?

Ohh man rather late now almost midnight, hope i don get too tired tmr morning. Haha wadever i just said, i just hope my loved ones, family and frens around me, are all doing fine. And yea hope to catch up wif ppl the next few weekends. HAHA must book in advance one ok! LOL. Of cos i m just joking.

Complications once again, I guess some things in life are really unpredictable. I nv once expected so many things to happen even when i m in army. Ppl who know, just know it and keep quiet lol. Yea man i just hope all these that happened doesnt change my friendships wif all my frens. Cos apparently something real bad happened last year March and November.. and I dont want tht kind of things to happen ever again haha. Remember, I have changed. I am not the emo Jeremy Soo many years ago!!

Alright man time to slp. Dam late nw. Haha nites ppl. I really really hope my life becomes less complicated soon enough. Till then, cya!

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